unwrapped... but unopened...

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halloween, for what it was, was alright...

no one beats my f'n costume, that's all i gotta say!



i'm still pretty angry at this point... one can't help but "read into" certain incidents and infer that it never really meant all that much to him... as i reflect now, i think that's getting to the real reason for the frustration... anthony diagnosed the root of these ongoing emotions as the idea that "we want what we can't have"... so maybe it's because i never had all of him that i still feel this attachment to what could be...

i want to be the "bigger person" and stay friends...

but it's difficult not to think about him... and still like him... or more?

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Current mood: aggravated
Current music: Linkin Park -- In the End

i can't tell which was more exhausting...

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the 18 minute climb up the CN tower...

OR

the ongoing saga that's prompted this rambling...

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i walked... i did it this time...

i told myself "this is it, i can't take this nonsense anymore"...

and i gave him every opportunity to make me think otherwise...

but for naught... i just wanted to know what was happening...

apparently, the answer was "nothing"...

(btw, the Super Troupers raised $1500 for United Way!)

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Current mood: indescribable
Current music: Green Day -- Good Riddance (Time of Your Life)