ramblings on a rainy saturday...

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Hello, and welcome to the Psychiatric Hotline...

Press 1 repeatedly if you are obsessive-compulsive...
If you are co-dependent, ask someone to help you press 2...
If you have multiple personality disorder, press 3, 4, and 5...

If you are a schizophreniac, ask the voices which number to press...

If you are paranoid delusional, we know what you want...
stay on the line so we can trace your call...

If you are manic depressive, it doesn't matter what you press...
no one will help you...

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ah... laughter...

if only we could make all our problems go away just by laughing at them... it's been an anxiety-filled weekend... i've gutted my room and packed everything away in boxes... no, i'm not moving out anytime soon, although i could move out (physically) tomorrow if i wanted to... i just had to see my things in boxes to steel my resolve...

i really need to do this... for myself... for my sanity...

on the other hand, it might not work out as originally planned... perhaps it would've been foolhardy to think of moving in with warner after only 3 months... we'll see if that works out... if not, i may have hit on the perfect alternative... in any case, i'm really worried about warner... well, about him and about us... i wonder how things will work out with us if things don't work out so well for him this summer... i wonder how much of myself i should be investing in someone else's plans... i wonder if it's selfishness or genuine concern on my part... i wonder what i can do to help... i wonder if i should even try... maybe i shouldn't make it my problem...

maybe i should stop caring so much... apparently i do that too much...
is there even such a thing? maybe i'm just a smotherer...


anyway, things will work out the way they're supposed to, right?

but then again, who says what "supposed to" is supposed to really be?

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