I've learned...
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That life is like a roll of toilet paper. The closer it gets to the end, the faster it goes.
That we should be glad God doesn't give us everything we ask for.
That money doesn't buy class.
That it's those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular.
That under everyone's hard shell is someone who wants to be appreciated and loved.
That the Lord didn't do it all in one day. What makes me think I can?
That to ignore the facts does not change the facts.
That when you plan to get even with someone, you are only letting that person continue to hurt you.
That love, not time, heals all wounds.
That the easiest way for me to grow as a person is to surround myself with people smarter than I am.
That everyone you meet deserves to be greeted with a smile.
That there's nothing sweeter than sleeping with your babies and feeling their breath on your cheeks.
That no one is perfect until you fall in love with them.
That life is tough, but I'm tougher.
That opportunities are never lost; someone will take the ones you miss.
That when you harbor bitterness, happiness will dock elsewhere.
That I wish I could have told my Mom that I love her one more time before she passed away.
That one should keep their words both soft and tender, because tomorrow you may have to eat them.
That a smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks.
That I can't choose how I feel, but I can choose what I do about it.
That when your newly born child holds your little finger in his little fist, that you're hooked for life.
That everyone wants to live on top of the mountain, but all the happiness and growth occurs while you're climbing it
That it is best to give advice in only two circumstances; when it is requested and when it is a life threatening situation.
That the less time I have to work with, the more things I get done.
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it's frustrating being dependent... i think that's the root of it... i got into an argument with my mother (yet again) about how it seems like i'm in my own little world when i'm at home... i'm so bubbly and outgoing when i'm out with friends, but i'm in a little shell when i'm with my family... i barely come out of my room except to eat, and i don't even really do that with the family... i resent being 22 and feeling like a child still... i look around at a lot of my friends that are out on their own, living their life, and it frustrates me that i've still got so much more studying to go through before i can start "living life"...
at the same time, i don't want to come off as ungrateful... i have it so made... i live at home with my parents who basically take care of my every need... not only are they helping me pay for school, but they also leased me a new car so i could travel at my own convenience, considering how far we live from school and everything else... so why is it that it's so painful for me to have even a 5-minute conversation with them about my day?
i wish there was an easy way to explain it... or even a way to explain it... it's not that i don't love them... it's just... i guess you can choose your friends, but you can't choose your family... i don't not like them... it's just that i have my own life to live and i just want to get on with it... but yet i don't want to live to regret not saying what i should say while i'm still with them... i have no qualms about being expressive here, to friends and perhaps even to random strangers... much less about saying what i feel (about them) and what i think to my friends... i guess i can come up with some type of resolution to try to be more responsive and appreciative, but i just know that it won't last...
you can't force that kind of dynamic... you can work on it, to some extent, but i just don't feel that sense of urgency about it... but it scares me to think i'll end up kicking myself in the ass after if and when my parents are gone and my sisters and i have all grown up... there's a lot of things i've learned... and yet i've still got to grow up in a lot of ways, i guess...
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Current mood: embarassed
Current music: Boyz II Men -- Song for Mama
That life is like a roll of toilet paper. The closer it gets to the end, the faster it goes.
That we should be glad God doesn't give us everything we ask for.
That money doesn't buy class.
That it's those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular.
That under everyone's hard shell is someone who wants to be appreciated and loved.
That the Lord didn't do it all in one day. What makes me think I can?
That to ignore the facts does not change the facts.
That when you plan to get even with someone, you are only letting that person continue to hurt you.
That love, not time, heals all wounds.
That the easiest way for me to grow as a person is to surround myself with people smarter than I am.
That everyone you meet deserves to be greeted with a smile.
That there's nothing sweeter than sleeping with your babies and feeling their breath on your cheeks.
That no one is perfect until you fall in love with them.
That life is tough, but I'm tougher.
That opportunities are never lost; someone will take the ones you miss.
That when you harbor bitterness, happiness will dock elsewhere.
That I wish I could have told my Mom that I love her one more time before she passed away.
That one should keep their words both soft and tender, because tomorrow you may have to eat them.
That a smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks.
That I can't choose how I feel, but I can choose what I do about it.
That when your newly born child holds your little finger in his little fist, that you're hooked for life.
That everyone wants to live on top of the mountain, but all the happiness and growth occurs while you're climbing it
That it is best to give advice in only two circumstances; when it is requested and when it is a life threatening situation.
That the less time I have to work with, the more things I get done.
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it's frustrating being dependent... i think that's the root of it... i got into an argument with my mother (yet again) about how it seems like i'm in my own little world when i'm at home... i'm so bubbly and outgoing when i'm out with friends, but i'm in a little shell when i'm with my family... i barely come out of my room except to eat, and i don't even really do that with the family... i resent being 22 and feeling like a child still... i look around at a lot of my friends that are out on their own, living their life, and it frustrates me that i've still got so much more studying to go through before i can start "living life"...
at the same time, i don't want to come off as ungrateful... i have it so made... i live at home with my parents who basically take care of my every need... not only are they helping me pay for school, but they also leased me a new car so i could travel at my own convenience, considering how far we live from school and everything else... so why is it that it's so painful for me to have even a 5-minute conversation with them about my day?
i wish there was an easy way to explain it... or even a way to explain it... it's not that i don't love them... it's just... i guess you can choose your friends, but you can't choose your family... i don't not like them... it's just that i have my own life to live and i just want to get on with it... but yet i don't want to live to regret not saying what i should say while i'm still with them... i have no qualms about being expressive here, to friends and perhaps even to random strangers... much less about saying what i feel (about them) and what i think to my friends... i guess i can come up with some type of resolution to try to be more responsive and appreciative, but i just know that it won't last...
you can't force that kind of dynamic... you can work on it, to some extent, but i just don't feel that sense of urgency about it... but it scares me to think i'll end up kicking myself in the ass after if and when my parents are gone and my sisters and i have all grown up... there's a lot of things i've learned... and yet i've still got to grow up in a lot of ways, i guess...
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Current mood: embarassed
Current music: Boyz II Men -- Song for Mama
posted by þΛųL jØŋαŦhΛŋ @ 22:30
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